4 poems – Vinita Agrawal

 

Looking for Love

My hunger for love
has started to fill the air
I can now hold sunlight with my teeth
my arms can hold millions of bytes and gigabytes
It makes no difference that the tubes of New York
are clogged with water or that Mumbai is
drowning in the rains
so long as the surfing freeways are clear.
My brain will take anything you give me
anything to take the place of love
Even cyber skin.

 

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My Incarnation

The pact between my Maker and me is broken
Broken is my illusion of forever
Painfully I have watched you go
Slowly I have heard life quieten
The heart that leads me away from myself is my own
How much peace can I purchase from a traitor?
I hope an old friend comes to me
So that I can ask her
Why has the universe brought me to its brink tonight
I am beginning to understand dervishes
How they pass their tremors to onlookers
I am beginning to understand people who are clad
In a singular meaning of life

I am betrayed by my incarnation
It gives away all it has

Love is the supreme source of help
But I am betrayed by love

The resolves of sleep are sweet
Let the morning mean something.

 

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Breaking

My future lovers mean nothing to me
This anguish has wiped me out
Scattered me into the invisible winds
I am not food for even the birds
My scars run deep between faith and God
Right now, I don’t even know how to love myself
I opiate between me and my distances
If you can, do only this for me;
Absolve me of being born a woman
Else leave me alone on some untrodden path
With my missing heartbeats.

 

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Something Somewhere…

Something, something must be left behind
We must have left a trace at least
of our bond

warm it was
Like the skin between entwined fingers
Like the sun shining out of eyes

We’d spun endless strings
to keep us entwined forever
If only we hadn’t let go of the beginning

If not the skeins, the knots must be somewhere
Lying hidden on the jungles of floors, like traps
to trip new lovers.

I remember your every breath
lining the quad of my world,
Now those breaths are leasing life to a daisy, magnolia or lily, I’m sure

How can meanings disappear
from destiny’s designs
even if we foolishly flout every sign

What once was can never be again
But nothingness throbs with a life of its own
It sculpts a new you

When all is gone the nothingness must remain
If only to prove that what was real once
is debris and rubble now.

 

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© 2013 Vinita Agrawal.  All 4 poems first published by RaedLeafPoetry-India 2013.

 

Vinita Agrawal

Vinita Agrawal is a Mumbai based writer and poet. Her poems have been published in Asian Cha, Kritya.org, Mahmag World Literature, The Brown Critique, Poetry 24, Mandala  and various other online and print magazines.

6 Replies to “4 poems – Vinita Agrawal”

    1. Thank you Basy…for taking the time to stop by here and for your appreciation.

  1. Sensitive to life,
    in depth flow of inquiry,
    tearing every garb to bare,
    to the knowing in its birth and obliteration
    with a fresh soft breeze of anew..from very nothingness…

  2. Thanks Scott for your heartfelt comments and appreciation. Your detailed attention to my work is invaluable!

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